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simplefen
Jun. 15th, 2008
04:10 pm - spending money wisely
Been looking at my wardrobe recently
only to find that there are quite a number of pieces that i didnt really like it,
or it does look okay but definitely not a must have in my wardrobe.
Ive come to understand on the terms of buying clothes.
I used to buy clothes that are nice, a piece i consider a pass/tick in my style of shopping.
And because of this tick, i tend to buy clothes that are nice, yes not bad looking on me,
but hey, on a second thought, it wasnt FLATTERING.
Some of the clothing i bought does not have the "WOW" factor that makes it a must-have piece in my wardrobe.
They are just some material stuffs that are bought on impulse,
to satisfy that hungry thirst of mine for new clothes.
It did not occur to me until now, that we should buy new clothes that should look flattering on us, and not just a material that looks nice on us.
There is a difference between flattering and nice!
And because of this understanding,
ive become a better shopper, spending money wisely on must-have pieces rather than nice looking pieces.
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geekyJun. 12th, 2008
05:08 pm - Damn!
No US overseas studying for me.
Reason---- not financially capable.
DAMN!
No amount of whining will get me there.
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angryJun. 7th, 2008
01:15 pm - Facebook
Do you have a facebook?
That is the question which has been circling around me.
And in the modern, contemporary and digitally manipulated world,
the normal respond is always, "yes i do"
But not me. My answer is " no, i do not have one."
And the next immediate question shooting at me is " why do you NOT have one?"
my thoughts are>> why SHOULD i have one?
What is Facebook? Isnt it just another social network like friendster? There are so many social networks on the internet that i think my ten fingers would not be enough to count them all. Theres the Multiply, friendster, and now, the facebook which took the world by storm.
I used to go with the flow. What people are doing, i will follow. Just to reassure myself that i am not the ugly duckling of the crowd. That i am not someone weird or strange.
But having lived my life for 20 years, i knew what i want. I know who i am.
And, im very determined now not to have one.
My reasons for not having a facebook, though it is really popular, are very simple.
Many of us are spending way too much time on the internet/ the virtual world.
We live in the real world. So why are we spending such time in the virtual world?
isnt it contradicting?
I asked my friends what is face book all about?
They replied," actually i go there just to see other people's pictures."
Thats a ridiculous explanation.
You are telling me that you are spending 1,2 or 3 hours clicking in the virtual world, jus to view other people's pics?
Isnt it a waste of your time resources?
Do you want to lie on your deathbed, regreting spending those few precious moments in the virual world when you are about to leave the real world?
Seriously, i would rather spend those time whipping up a good meal, even if im the only one at home. Or read a good book, watch a really good show on the Tv or spend the day with a really good friend of yours.
These are more important to me than what i am doing in the virtual world.
I asked myself hard.
"Am i getting a facebook jus to be labeled as cool, hip, trendy and not outdated?"
" Am i getting a facebook just to show that i am as sociable as any other people in there?"
"Am i getting the facebook to show that i am not a boring person?"
"Am i getting it jus to prove that i have many friends that i want the world know?"
My answer to all these is NO.
And i am not going to care about people who says anything about me not having a facebook.
That is not important to me.
Whats important to me, is living fully in the real world.
Even now, i do not spend more than 2 hours everyday on the computer. Be it whether i have to email important docs, do some impt research, blogging, or any other stuffs. I gave it a restriction of 2 hours.
I personally do not like the digitally manipulated world.
It just rips us the true meaning of living in the real world.
We have forgotten the importance of personal touch.
the importance of handwritten notes or letters
And here i am, still faithfully holding on to these long forgotten values.
I am trying hard.
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crappyMay. 28th, 2008
03:45 pm - Being able to help is a gift
2 days is all i need to understand one simple concept of life.
That is:
Being able to help is a gift.
Help is a very general term.
It has no limit.
No matter how small or how big that help is,
being able to help is indeed a gift
It makes a difference to the person needing help
Be it a small difference or a big one,
that person will feel appreciative
that the day was not that bad afterall.
I helped 2 persons in the past 2 days consecutively.
It is not a big help.
Just something within my own limits
But i felt great.
A feeling that money cant buy
And i felt enlightened all of a sudden.
thinking through about the past 2 days
i've been searching high n low for my gifts.
Is it in drawing? Is it in Singing? Is it in business?
It isnt in any of those.
It is in myself.
i am a gift. a gift indeed.
So long as i am able help everyone who needs it, and is within my means, it is a gift.
life is simple. We live life too complicated to understand simple concepts.
And, i am glad to have understood.
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refreshedJul. 22nd, 2007
11:58 am - cant i have a little more time?
time really flies...
in just like 2 more weeks, semestral exam will start.
Had no idea why i cant seem to catch up with the time!
Been busy with projects, projects and projects...
Running here and there, between gleneagles hospital, SP, tuition kid hs and my house.....
Time just pass without us knowing....
Really hv no mood to mug for exams... worse stilll
Not been touching my Biz law tutorials since the very 1st lesson......
Been constantly late for school...
Or otherwise, skipping lessons..
Received a warning letter from schoool.... falling behind 75%.....
Watching too much of TVs...
Using too much of the internet....bloghopping.... spreeing.... Msn-ing... (this just easily take up 2-3 hours of time)
arghh... why why why.....
Am i simply tooo slow?? or ignorant about time? or just taking things for granted??
I am totallly screwed up!
Apr. 13th, 2007
03:30 pm - Facial
Been thinking for quite some time and had finally decided to go for facial as recommended by my darlin, cheryl.
As it was my very first time, i felt very nervous and anxious and definitely... FEAR. Well, as you see, i do not have the perfect celebrity-like skin and had breakouts and acne scars on my face, i am realy scared that my condition will worsen after doing a facial. Furthermore, i grew up in a family that brought me up by telling me that all these kind of facial are not true. Therefore, i do definitely have these fears inside me.
But still, i went for it, praying hard that this will really improve my condition and even help me to realise my dream of having a porcelain-like skin with definitely no pimples, no freckles and no acne scars.
I do not know if the heaven is giving me a sign, telling me to stop the facial because in the process, there was a blackout! Can you imagine that!!!! At this very time! OKay, so we waited and the lights came on and off and finally for the 3rd or 4th time, the lights came on. At that point in time, i was already praying hard that the lights will stay, considering the fact that the beautician was already putting the acid on my face! Well, heaven seemed to hear my prayers and the light was on till the end of the session.
I simply still have doubts with the facial because partly, the beautician was eating biscuits while waiting for my mask to dry. To me, i think that it is an action of unprofessionalism. Furthermore, she seemed to focus more on cheryl, though cheryl was not the one doing facial. The beautician was giving advices to cheryl on what she think cheryl should do, giving me no attention. I do not actually mean i want her to give me whole of her attention since putting on masks and so on needs time. but i think she went a little too far. As she knows that i am scared, i think the more she should do is to tell me what she is going to apply, instead of me asking everytime. Furthermore, she seemed to say different things at different time. While still lying down, she told me not to let my face come into contact with water for that day, even while bathing. But when the session was done, she told me that i cannot let my face touch any water for the next 4 hours. I didnt think much at that time and was trying to absorb every instructions she said.
I did not feel at all secured even after the facial. I still have doubts with her skills. Not only did she not make me feel comfortable during the session, she also seemed to put the whole lot of attention to herself. She told us lots of stories about how she successfully helped to counsel her patients who had personal problems and also how many people trust her skills. WEll, to me, if all these are real, then of course i can say tht she is really one formidable woman. But somehow, i just cant seem to trust her totally. One of the factors may be that i no longer have trust in a stranger or even friends(definitely not you, cheryl. i trust u a lot thats y i head for audrey)
In conclusion, i did not think that the whole session was worth 90 when all she did was cleanse my face, mask my face once, acid my face and prick on those pimples. Well, i do not exactly know what happens during a normal facial, but 90 for all these seems a little steep. Furthermore, before i laid down for my facial, she also told me that she will put one acid that needs to be washed off. But she didnt do it. I dunno if she has forgotten about it or that she dun think there is a need to.
Just find her words a little contradicting and hard to believe.
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scaredApr. 1st, 2007
10:55 pm - fucked up
Not feeling good today. A lot of doubts today and what caused me to feel this way>>> its forms... forms and FORMS.
First and foremost.. i am one who simply dislike filling out forms! To me, it is a totally ridiculous procedure and it takes up much of your time to do so!!
Secondly, some of the questions asked in the forms are simply too chim!! that makes me really scratch my head and of course, frustrated. I mean, forms should be make easy for an individual to fill it out and of course, it shouldnt use up too much of our time!! HEllo... TIME IS PRECIOUS!!
Thirdly, there should be really clear instructions on how to fill out a form.. i mean short and simple, easy-to-read instructions! Not one that takes up to over 20 pages.
Well, i am feeling this way cos of the FORMS that i had already completed long ago and FORMS that are waiting to be completed. As i went to the United States for my internship at Walt Disney World in 2006, i had to complete 2 of the tax return forms, in order to claim back my tax! Well, the whole email that they sent us on the instructions of what to do was such a chim one.. none of us knew what to do. I approached my lecturer-in-charge, Mr.Conrad, and as expected,.. he did nothing. All he was get those copies and i dun even noe what he did or has done to them!!! He was supposed to email to penelope or Sue sharpe but he didnt even get back to me!!! At the very least, he should give mi a call telling me that i should approach others or tht neither penelope or sue sharpe has got back to him. But, HE DID NOTHING. wELL. the deadline is almost up and we were of course rushing to fill in the very chim forms. Currently, we were only holding on to our hope that we did that correctly, as i had actually paid $33 to speedpost those documents over!
My goodness. I didnt know it is such a troublesome procedure and somehow, it has taken a toll on my emotions and feelings.
Feb. 28th, 2007
05:33 pm - LOVE
Love is when u share a bowl of ice kanchang and u save the atap chee for her.....
It's when he lets u pick the movie and you(she) choose the war flick instead of the romantic comedy, becos u know he secretly wants to watch that.....
It's not saying 'Hah! I told u so!" when she sprains her ankle wearing killer heels even though u did tell her.....
It's when he downloads Lily Allen on his iPod although he can't stand her-just in case you ever feel like borrowing his iPod, You'd something to listen to.....
It's bringing her lingerie shopping and letting her buy comfy cotton PJs if that's what she really wants, instead of the crotchless panties you've been eyeing on.....
It's sweating out with him rollerblading even though you'd much rather be shopping......
And most importantly-and this is the hardest thing to do-it's walking away from a fight becos u rather keep the peace and show some love than prove that you're right.....
over-ambitious girl
04:00 pm - Wrong decision
Whether we want to admit or not, we still have to face the reality.
Life is full of decisions. No matter where you go, you will have to make a decision. And this is true.
Simple things like where to go shopping, what should i wear today or even more so, what to eat?? Such decisions are simple and are often made almost without an effort and quickly.
But what about big decisions?! Decisions that you know will affect your life, your future and what you will learn. Do you actually start to think, i mean think really hard, and weigh their pros and cons? Still, no matter what, you will have to come up with a decision whether you like it or not.
Just so recently, i made a decision and realized only that it was wrong. It was 2 job offers that i had and i was pondering over which one should i take it up. i weighed their pros and cons and here it is...
| Telemarketer | Retail assistant in a shop that sells candy |
| Pros: A new experience for me | Pros: experienced in it. |
| Pros: Customer interaction through phone | Pros: customer interaction through face to face |
| Pros: At redhill | Pros:located at a busy new shopping mall |
| Pros: End early> 530pm. | Pros: Start at a later time (flexible) |
| COns: Start very early>830 COns: Most people upon hearing this kind of phone call will end the call Cons: NO experience. | COns: Pretty Far> 1 hour Cons: not learning much of a new stuff |
However, this method did not help me much and i finally made a decision. Retail assistant in candy __ won the bid. I think i know the reason why now. Its because of its familiar environment. We are always like that. Always afraid to take risks, always afraid to go out of our comfort zones, ending up with ourselves doing the same thing over and over again. I guessed this must be the reason why i chose retail instead. Face the reality girl. I am afraid to go out of my comfort zone.
So i went for it. On my very 1st day at work, something tells me that i had made a wrong decision.
1st of all... one of the managers told me to ignore a customer's enquiries about the price of a product in our shop. He claimed that these people only want us to run about the shop. He even told me that out of 300 customers, 100 are kiasu(s) and the next 200 are kaypos. oh my god! what kind of service is this!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tell you what. I was utterly shocked!!!
Having attached to Walt Disney World, Orlando, Fl and working there for 5 months, i was very shocked to hear what he had just told me. I really hoped that he did not mean what he had just said, but its not.
Next, when i was offering additional service to a customer by requesting to help him cut off the price tag, i was being scolded for doing that. I was disappointed and frustrated. They told me that i am only supposed to do that when the customer request for it. At that moment, i was very angry. To me, we must be the one initiating such actions. On my 1st day, i realized that there was no customer interaction as they come and go. NO customer relationship was developed. In addition, their motive was to reduce the lines which i find totally ridiculous!!! I was utterly disappointed and asked myself why did i choose to come here?
Well.. after working for 2 weeks and having claimed my salary, i left. I could not stand the way they treat customers, their philosophy and motives. I quit.
The day that i quit was actually the day which the telemarkerter job starts if i were to accept the offer earlier on. I guessed this is fate. Such decisions are still not that serious as compared to others. But still, it is a decision that i had made myself and i am totally ashamed of it. I cant even make such decisions, how am i supposed to make a really serious decision that who knows,may caused someone's death, or make a company lose a huge amount of money????
All of us have to learn to be responsible for his or her actions. We can blame no one for making a wrong decision for the decision is made by you. Make a decision, and not to regret after it. I am not trying to say that i regret making the wrong choice by working in that shop. Actually i was quite glad. I realized that this is Singapore. I am no longer in the states. I must work the Singaporean way but at the same time, preserve my customer-relationship skills and other servicing skills that i had learnt and possessed. I am even more determined now than ever to provide better service to customers and represent Singapore in doing so.
Over-ambitious girl.
pissed off